A Stage After the Play
On returning to a place that stayed behind
The air felt different as we crossed into Livermore, as if the past ran just beneath the surface of the day. A few days ago, I brought Jeannette de Beauvoir there. She is the editor helping me shape Right in Two: A Journey Through Division, Discipline, and the Way of Tao, and I wanted her to see the landscape that anchors the early chapters. It mattered to me that she stand where those stories live, so the pages she works on carry more than memory.
The camps were still in their places along the back roads of Maine. My parents’. My grandparents’. My aunts’ and uncles’. Their shapes were unmistakable, though softened as if time had been sanding them down grain by grain. A roofline tilts. Porch boards sigh under their own weight. Windows look outward with the patience that comes from decades beside a lake. Families do what they can to keep these old structures upright, but repairs compete with taxes and the demands of ordinary life.
Main Street carried the same outline, although much of its pulse had faded. Shops that once held errands and conversations were dark. A few buildings had been taken down entirely, leaving gaps that looked like missing teeth. You can still picture what stood there, but the spaces between what remains tell their own story. It was the kind of quiet that follows a long storm, when the wind has fallen away and you begin to see what changed while you were gone.
By the river, the absence grew wider. The Otis Mill had loomed over the water for generations. Today the sky occupies its place. A few concrete pads remain. A scattering of brick. The steel that once guided workers and freight stands as the last reminder. Everything else has been scraped clean, leaving the feeling of a held breath that never quite releases.
Somewhere along the way, my purpose shifted. I was not guiding Jeannette through a town. I was walking her through a life I once lived. It felt like stepping onto a stage after the final audience has gone home. The scenery is still visible, familiar in shape, but muted. The voices that gave it warmth have drifted into the rafters where only echoes remain. I realized I was feeling the absence as much as the place.
You could rebuild every structure. You could raise the storefronts again and restore every board on every camp. You could recreate the outline with perfect fidelity. But the world that gave it soul would not return. It was never the buildings that held the magic. It was the people who animated them.
On the drive back, that truth settled with a quiet certainty. Childhood places do not travel with us. They stay rooted where we left them, waiting in their own steady stillness. What we meet when we return is not the past but its resonance.
Shakespeare wrote that the world is a stage. Walking through those towns, I understood why. The sets remain. The curtain has fallen. What stays with us are the lines we carry forward, long after the lights have dimmed.


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